So... i've met someone... someone interesting, someone which resonated with myself... someone which felt part of me... ok. Sounds easy or phantasmagorical...no problem there..
I've met a person, a being, not a cv, a career or anything like that... she sang beautiful, i liked it very much, not only because she sang most of my karaoke stupid tries, but...it felt, she got to me a little.
I've heard many voices, but ...in all cases, except some ( or maybe 1 person which i can surely point) there were....just voices..with a skin , an attitude , a career.... voices which dressed up a body . That's all there was.
My attitude is very reserved. Unfortunately , as i said in an earlier post...people can't see that, because the ones i interact with...just sense that i'm a little vulcano... and they can't picture more... It's not their fault. It's mine.
It's mine because i open myself rarely and with just a little group of people, but they are sometimes overpowered by my (i lack the right word) ...my...what i have to offer.
In the earlier post i mentioned a skill: the one which pushed people i liked farther away from me, the one which cliked on their defense mechanism... It's still my fault. I don't know yet ( even if i make good progress) to choose the right ammount of attention , care and interest . I frighten that person...
I'm learning...
I know at some point it will be unnecessary, but ... i cannot but just learn till then...and... if i don't make mistakes ..i cannot learn.
That's the way it goes, you make mistakes, you learn ...nobody grew up and had wisdom without a prior experience.
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